Diary of a (easily distracted) wanderer

Gosh, it has been a hot minute. Hotter than the weather I’m currently experiencing. I’ve been writing but not posting, starting but not completing. So now I need to do a few throwbacks on my days off from work. Get my little playground up to date with my latest ramblings.

So here goes…

The other day I was telling my manager about the books I had recently purchased and read. It is after all the perfect season to curl up next to the heater with a cup of hot chocolate in one hand and a good novel or self-help book in the other. Though lately my attention is easily led astray. It takes more than a Stephen King thriller to keep my thoughts from drifting away. I can’t read past two pages (unless I’m at the last chapter) without being distracted, I fall for the lingering every time. My spam filter is a little broken. It doesn’t take much to divert my attention. I may look in the opposite direction with a book open in my hands.

I told her about a couple of books that were mentioned by a Youtuber/ neurologist (Naza Nalani) in two of her videos. I’d stop and play (rewind, like the olden days) to catch the book titles and write them down. I said I’d really like to know what other books she had stacked on her bookshelf. I want to grow my reading list and expand my shelves. My manager simply said, “well, why don’t you ask her?”. Good question, why don’t I just ask her? What’s stopping me? Apart from the fear of not getting a reply and her saying no. But that’s all in my head. So I pushed past my thoughts and took my manager’s advice and I did just that. I puckered up some courage and messaged the neurologist on Instagram, asking if she could recommend some more books. My question was sent and delivered. I didn’t wait, I left it and partly forgot all about it. To my surprise, she replied. The following day I went back to my manager and told her she replied with a list. To which she replied, “if you don’t ask you don’t get”.

How many times have I heard that quote? too many is the answer and it still feels new every time I hear it. It’s fitting to say I’m re-reading the first book of The Secret. Slowly getting through the second chapter. It’s clear that I play a key role in creating the life that I desire. However, this isn’t done through my thoughts alone, they set me off on the right path. I need to begin with positive thoughts that I will receive what I need, even if plan A doesn’t work. There’s always a plan B all the way to plan Z. Once I’ve told myself I will achieve my goal, I need to get out there, step away from my comfort zone and ask out loud for what I want. I say that as humbly as I can.